My Recovery Journey: Dealing with Disappointment and Resentment
Unrealistic Expectations: A Recipe for Disaster
When I first started recovery, I thought it would be a quick fix. I believed that treatment would magically solve all my problems, and I'd be back on my feet in no time. But recovery doesn't work that way. It's a long, hard slog that requires commitment and perseverance. When reality didn't match my expectations, I felt like I'd been punched in the gut, often it felt personal.
The Poison of Resentment
Disappointment can quickly turn into resentment, especially when I feel like others have let me down. And let me tell you, resentment is a killer. It can make you angry, bitter, and hostile—exactly the kind of emotions that can send you spiraling back into addiction. Here’s the thing; people are not out to get me, THEY ARE OUT FOR THEMSELVES!
How I Deal with the Tough Stuff
Get Real with My Expectations: I work with my coach to help me set achievable goals. I know recovery isn't a straight line, so I prepare for the good days and the bad.
Take a Hard Look at Myself: I do some serious soul-searching to understand my part in things and why I'm feeling resentful. It's not always easy, but it helps me grow.
Talk It Out: I don’t often write in a journal but I talk to someone I trust. Getting my feelings out in the open helps me process them and move forward.
Stay Grounded: Mindfulness and meditation keep me centered and help me manage negative emotions, as do my other staples such as yoga, walking outdoors, working out and healthy cooking.
Focus on the Good Stuff: Gratitude helps me shift my focus from what's going wrong to what's going right. From there I shift my thinking into what I can do rather than what I can’t.
Surround Myself with Support: I go to support groups like AA, where I can share my story and learn from others who are going through similar struggles.
Recovery is tough, but it's worth it. By managing my expectations, dealing with resentment, and using healthy coping strategies, I'm able to navigate the tough times and keep moving forward.
